I’m always at your house, you kiss me in front of you family, and everyone wants us together… Yet you deny being a thing with me. Makes perfect sense. 😒
I love having a tumblr that no one I actually know can see.. It’s like my free place to rant about whatever I want and not have to worry about being judged! I love being able to just vent and not have anyone I know read it.
Finally found my soulmate Oh my god. Literally fell in love this feeling is ridiculous. So in lloveeeeee.
I just desperately want that one person in my life that will love me unconditionally and always be there for me…. Apparently that is too much to ask.
I hate my family. They make me so miserable. My dad doesn’t want me and neither does my mom. No matter what house I were to live in, its like they don’t care for my existence anyway. I cannot wait to go to college far away and then never talk to or see any of them again. I don’t want them to know what ever great things I accomplish in the future, I don’t want them to meet any of the children I plan on having, I don’t want them to come visit me, I don’t want them to try and contact me. I want them out of my life for GOOD when I move out. I want to stop feeling so miserable all the time because no matter what I do it’ll never be good enough for them. Being depressed you would think they would treat me better than they do, but no of course not. Instead they make me feel worse about myself and make me feel like shit all the time. God forbid I tweet something about them or make a status, its the end of them damn world, but my raging cunt of a mother can call me all the names in the world while she thinks I’m sleeping. She wonders why I hate her? Well there you go bitch theres your fucking reason. As long as your stupid prick of a husband is happy, you’re happy. You are a sick and twisted bitch and I cannot stand you anymore. I wish you would’ve given me up for adoption because then MAYBE I would have been with a family who actually wants me around. I would rather live in an orphanage or a foster home rather than be with these people. I hate my house, its always a mess because this family is disgusting. I hate having people over because allll of my friends parents were smart and went to college or married people who actually were going somewhere in life, not low life faggots like my wonderful step father. I hate being picked up in the car my mother owns its a piece of shit and it makes us look beyond poor. I hate being pressured to cheerlead in college, I hate cheering now, the fuck makes you think I want to cheer in college?? I hate the people I go to school with here, I can’t trust anyone with anything and when I tell people things they change the subject and make everything about themselves. On top of all of this I feel like the biggest asshole because those poor people in Connecticut lost their lives friday and I cried all weekend over it and then my family starts their shit which makes me complain and then feel like a terrible person because well at least I’m still living :/ I just don’t know what to do anymore, when I’m actually happy everyone else is miserable which then makes me miserable. But when I’m sad everyone around me is happy and they make me feel even worse for being sad. What do you do when you have no one to talk to because everyone that surrounds you doesn’t really give two shits about you…?