Well I finally think I’m done crying. At least I hope so. Everything happens for a reason I guess.
Every time I tell myself I’m okay and that I don’t care, I get this awful feeling in my stomach and I just want to vomit. I really love that kid 😔
I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people, to push myself. I was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all, to fight for myself. ❤
I’m scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don’t want to lose you. So this is it, this is love. Giving you the power to break me, but trusting you not to.
I hate myself so much. I can barely see my screen typing this from the mass amounts of tears falling right now. I knew after prom things would end but I was really hoping they didn’t… And I really didn’t expect it to end like this. Falling in love with someone who is literally the same person as you is the greatest thing in the world. Trying to fall out of love with them… I just can’t do it. I hate myself so much and I would give anything to go back and change things. I really could’ve spent the rest of my life with that kid. To say I fell in love with him would be an understatement. 😭💔